The Eye of I

The Eye of I

The beginning and the end is I. And I is Now, and I is Here. Neither I, nor Now, nor Here have any meaning. For there is no Thing other than what is. The I is and is nothing. Nothing cannot be counted, Nothing cannot be measured, Nothing cannot be described. The beginning is also the end and all Things between.

The Eye of I is itself. The I sees its own possibilities with the Eye. It sees Creation in Nothing, it sees what is as itself. The Eye of I observes while the I is observed observing. The Eye and the I are Now and Here.

The possibilities of Nothing span from no Thing to every Thing. Nothing is Here and Nothing is Now. The Eye sees all things between no Thing and every Thing in the Here and in the Now. The Eye is Here and Now.

The Eye sees the I and the I is Nothing. In Nothing is no thing and every thing. The I is both the I and Not the I to the Eye. The Eye sees the I and does not see the I between no Thing and every Thing. The Eye that sees is the Eye that does not. The Eye that does not is seen by the Eye that does. The I is the Eye.

In the Eye We exist, to the I We do not. The I is what is, the Eye sees what is. The Eye is the Beginning and the End, the I is Eternal.

Expressing myself….

I haven’t been writing lately because I’ve recently found an interest in another form of expression. The beautiful part about writing on this blog is that the words give me a certain degree of anonymity…which is very helpful when talking about the undefinable “self”. I’ve decided to try another form of expression and self-communication through the medium of YouTube. This is a much different form of expression and is quite entertaining. I will continue to write here on the blog, but if you would like to visit my Video Page please visit the link below

Sincerely,

Me

http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=forgetfulgod

Family

Family. Often we seem to think of family as the people who are biologically connected to us. Those who share a name, a history, or a culture. This perception of family is rampant in our reality…it is promoted, advertised, and even deemed necessary. It is the belief that you are part of a group that is somehow separate from the other “groups” throughout the world. It’s a comfortable perception surely, but is it really what is?

As a body this perception is absolutely vital…it is a way of answering the question “Who am I?” or “Where do I come from?”. But as a consciousness….things are a little different.
True, it’s very reassuring to know that there are certain people that absolutely care for you and love you…it’s nice to know that those people we deem as “family” will always be there for us. It’s an ego boost…a way of feeling important to someone else. But is this always the case? Unfortunately no.
Often our feelings of resentment or even disappointment come from the fact that this concept, which we have been told over and over again is the way things should be, is not the way things are. Sometimes we are abandoned, ignored, taken advantage of, or even used as a crutch for those who are supposed to understand us the most….those who are supposed to love us unconditionally often have conditions for that love. We are often “disowned” for something as simple as a different life choice…we are shunned because we choose to look at life a little differently, we choose to follow a different path, or even simply because we value different things.
Why? Because the concept of family is an ego-based concept. It is a belief that the body is more important than the consciousness that drives it. It is the belief that we are connected by blood and history…not by our awareness of self.
In being One entity the fact is that we have no family and that we are all family. “Family” doesn’t even begin to describe how we are all connected…and in letting go of the concept we let go of the belief structure behind it. When we let go of our ingrained preconceptions of family we begin to see that those who are biologically connected to us are the same as everyone else…we lose our expectations of them…we accept that they, like every other reflection of your “self”, have the right and ability to do and think anything they would like to. They are not under any illusionary responsibility to accept your life, the changes within it, or even your choices…they are under no contract.
Without the concept and preconceptions of a biological “family” we are faced with the realization that everyone has the right and ability to choose. They can accept you or not…they can relate to you or not…they can share with you openly or focus on their own needs and wants. If we all have this ability then there is no reason to separate us simply based on our last names or blood type…in fact there is no need to separate us at all. If blood is what is important…we all have it. If we truly must have a Family…then we are all part of it. The questions “Who am I?” and “Where do I come from?” can be answered quite easily….you are us and we are you, we come from each other. We are one….value all of us, treat us equally and expect nothing. I will do the same for you.

Your brother, sister, father, mother, son, and daughter,

Me

The Thought Police

One thing that I’ve noticed about this huge matrix of interconnectedness (we call it experience/life) is that certain reflections come across your path exactly when you need them to. It never fails…whether they are characters who affirm your faith or tempt it, they are always there exactly when you need them to be.
Among all of these possible “meetings” there are those reflections I like to call the Thought Police. These are the reflections of yourself that specifically try to knock you down. Whether it be your way of life, your style of dress, your spiritual or religious beliefs, or even just your existence…these are the reflections that want to make you feel worse just because you’re feeling better. They want you to think.
I say that these “people” are reflections because that’s what they are…they are the physical representation of those thoughts that we are all so very used to hearing. The thoughts of doubt, regret, shame, and fear…these thoughts are in the flow and are therefore wandering about the world as living beings.
The problem here is that we immediately seek to judge these reflections…we want to label them as mean, angry, or bitter and then toss them into our “not worth thinking about” pile. But we can’t…we can’t because, whether we like it or not, these “people” are still Me. They are still there to show you a part of yourself.
The funny part about all of this is that these reflections only have a negative affect if we react to them. Once we react to them we start thinking (doubting) and their job is complete. But what if we truly just look at them…see them for what they are and take a different lesson from the meeting? Perhaps recognize your doubt and realize that you can face it without reacting? Rather than let this situation hurt you, let it raise you up…let it reinforce the knowledge that you can let these thoughts go without worrying about them. Build strength from the Thought Police…

Just like the thoughts of doubt and fear…I don’t have to let them affect me.
This is also true for their physical reflections.

Bless the Thought Police for reminding me of my own strength.

Over and over…

Recently I’ve had a few comments from an anonymous reader who believes that my entries are very similar (almost a direct quotation apparently) to a book called “God – I am”. I’ve never read (or even heard) of this book so this struck me as quite odd…and to be honest, a little insulting.

Obviously I enjoy writing these little entries and take a certain amount of pride in their contents. I am not trying to teach anyone anything, this is simply a journal of the thoughts that I myself go through daily. Still though, something about the thought of plagiarism really hit a nerve…it was a though someone was trying to devalue the insights and thoughts I had worked so hard to achieve. And then it struck me…I was reacting.
I was letting my ego get in the way of what was really there. I was thinking of myself the body, not my “self”.
People all over the world are writing the same things that I am…indeed even countless people throughout history have written it, said it, or lived it. This is the point…the words have always been there….repeating over and over until I finally pay attention and listen. This isn’t the work of many people with similar thoughts, this is the work of one mind with a specific intent.

Much like a coded sentence where every second word forms another sentence, reality is intertwined with repeated messages that pop up just when they are needed. These messages all relate the same lesson….
“Let go”
“Surrender”
“Relax”

I truly hope I run across the book that Anonymous recommended. Even the title “God – I am” sounds like a worthwhile read. And rather than defend the works of my body, I think it would be quite enjoyable to read the words written by another reflection of my mind.

We are all saying the same thing…we’re just saying it in different ways.
“I” say it in an infinite amount of ways…all the “time”.

This is what we call “Progress”?

I’d like to bring your attention to this article. Basically, a poll was done with about 1500 Children under the age of 10. The purpose of this survey? To ask youngsters a very simple and yet very important question.

What do you think is the very best thing in the world?

Before I list the findings of this survey I would like to remind you, the reader, of a very important fact. These children will someday be adults. These are the future of our society…in fact, some of these kids will someday be the leaders of our world. With this in mind, let’s examine their priorities (which we, as their role-models, have taught them)

THE VERY BEST THINGS IN THE WORLD

1) Being a Celebrity
2) Good Looks
3) Being Rich
4) Being Healthy
5) Pop Music
6) Families
7) Friends
8) Nice Food
9) Watching Films
10) Heaven/God

Isn’t it nice to know that our future world will be populated by people who value money, status, and physical appearance above all else? Whether or not their brainless doesn’t seem to matter…these 3 attributes will give them all the power in the world to make EVERYONE else feel inferior. This is what our “civilization” is becoming.

Isn’t it odd though that the little pleasures in life are not listed? There was a time in human history when “Laughter” or “Playing” would have been on a child’s list of favorite things…perhaps “Swimming” or “Working with Mom/Dad”. Not anymore…now we have too many distractions, too many restrictions, and not enough actual human contact. We stick our children in front of a TV or in a Classroom so that we can go out into the world and get more “stuff”. We use “working” as an excuse and let our children be raised by the system…and of course the “system” teaches them one thing…it teaches them dependence(fear). Without money you will have nothing, without status nobody will like you, and without good looks you will always be ridiculed. Sad, isn’t it? These children are so busy worrying about what to wear and what others think…they no longer have time to go run in the fields or climb a tree. (Avoid the fields and trees! Don’t forget, last nights news said a child molester was in the area!)

With all this in mind it doesn’t really surprise me that God is the last thing on the list. In fact, if it wasn’t for those die-hard Christians forcing their children into church every Sunday, I doubt God would be on there at all. I’m absolutely sure that those children that DID answer “God” did so under the watchful eye of a god-fearing christian parent.

How can you know “God” if you’ve never had a chance to live freely? How can you experience “reality” for what it is if you are being raised by a “simulated reality” that is being controlled? These children have never faced life, they are being raised in a controlled environment…an environment that encourages them to pass off their responsibility for themself. They no longer have to survive, the system feeds them…they don’t have to learn from life, they have schools to teach them…they don’t even have to treat others with respect, money/status/and good looks will BUY them respect.

Isn’t it comforting to see where our world is going? And still, we call this “progress”.

Hoping that you SEE,

A Forgetful God

Listen very closely….

We, as a species, have fallen into the habit of listening to others more than we listen to ourselves. Think about it…everything you “think” you know about the world has been taught to you by someone else. Whether you believe in “gravity”, “god”, “history” or even “magic”…that fact is that you were taught that these concepts exist from another person (or many other people). How often do you wait to form an opinion on something until you hear other opinions first?

Scientists tell us that reality is created out of “energy”…they show us models and diagrams and make their case look very impressive…and so we believe them. But if you take away the labels, models, and theories…what are you left with? The same thing you had before you heard their theories…you are left with yourself and “reality”.

The sad fact is that our minds are filled with labels, ideas, definitions, concepts, and theories…and hardly any of them were formed by you. Did you sit down one day and “discover” gravity? No, you were taught that someone else did and that IT does exist. Did you sit down and figure out that the “Sun” is a huge ball of gas and fire? No…someone else told you it was. To you, the sun is just a bright light in the sky that somehow separates night from day. Does it do you any good to know that the sun is made of gas and fire? Not really…it is still that same light in the sky that it always was.

In fact, some of the mystery has gone out of the Sun now hasn’t it? Before it could have represented anything…it could have taught you about Duality and how light and dark are also symbols for good and evil, hot and cold, love or hate…it could have taught you something about the variation of “time” and the similiarities of “moments” that we experience. It could have even taught you that the light you see in your mind seems very similar to the light of the sun you see through your eyes (and maybe there really isn’t much difference). So, did learning someone else’s answer (the sun is made of…) do anything but limit the lessons you COULD have learned? If you think you know what something is, you’ll stop paying attention to what it could be.

This habit of listening to others has gotten out of hand…try it, ask anyone (it doesn’t matter who) what they believe about the world. Gauranteed you will get an answer like “Well, I used to believe in this persons theory, but now I think this belief structure is closer to the point”…not one single part of that sentence involves personal insight. Not one…our answers are always pointing to someone elses ideas, beliefs, writings, or thoughts…but where are our thoughts? What do YOU think?

Too many people seem to think that their own ideas mean nothing.
“I haven’t studied as much as this person”, “I’m not as old as that person”, “I’m not as intelligent”, “I’m not as enlightened”, “I’m not as confident”, etc…all excuses and justifications. All seemingly reasonable reasons to not look inward and figure things out for ourselves. Sad, isn’t it? But yet, here we are…an entire society full of people arguing over which theory is the “correct” theory…and none of those people actually CAME UP WITH THE THEORY. We’re arguing over other peoples ideas and claiming them to be our own. How many times have you heard someone say “I’m buddhist” or “I’m conservative”…doesn’t it strike you as odd that this person is actually admitting to being a blind follower of someone elses ideas?

Now, I’m very fond of the statement “learn from your mistakes” and so I’m trying to do just that. This mistake…this belief that someone else must have the right answer…has been one of the biggest building blocks of “society” as it stands right now. This “society” values money, wealth, and power over life, dignity, and freedom. This “society” passes off responsibility to government, religion, technology, and anything else it can create. This “society” is slowly and surely obliterating any connection we might have with the reality around us and is convincing us that we are all “separate” from each other. So…obviously we are making a mistake, let’s change it. Stop listening to what other people think…stop passing off your own right and ability to SEE your reality for what it is…stop taking the path travelled by all.

Take the road less travelled…your road. You are the only one who can travel it, nobody else can even see it. Its YOUR mind, YOUR reality, and YOUR responsibility.

All of our time and energy is spent searching for the “right path”…just look down and you’ll realize that you’ve always been on it. You’ve always been yourself…and if you listen very closely…you’ll notice that behind all the other voices telling you that THEY are right, you have ALWAYS been speaking the truth.

Stop ignoring yourself,

A Forgetful God

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Why don’t you Believe?

It never ceases to amaze me….there are so many “people” in the world who claim to be spiritual. So many people who claim to have “gotten the point”…they speak all the “right words”, read all the “right books”, and even listen to all the “right speakers”…they are “In the Know” without Knowing what IT is. Out of every 100 spiritualists I meet, I find 2 who are actually genuine and 98 who are just learning to be slightly more advanced sheep.

My point is this…if you’re going to “look inward” (which is the foundation of true spiritualism)..then stop screwing around and do it. You can sit there and regurgitate other peoples words at me, you can recommend books written by others until you’re blue in the face, you can even wear every “spiritual symbol” you can find…but until you give them all up you will NEVER find what you seek.

I’m sorry to put it this bluntly, but I’m trying to show True Compassion. This is the start of a “New Year” as some of us like to say…so I’m going to start this one by telling you the truth. It might not be the truth you want to hear, but it’s better than lying to you…isn’t that exactly what you’re tired of? People lying to you? Well, the truth is never comfortable, but here it is…the sooner you deal with it, the happier you’ll be.

1) As long as you are relying on the words or insights of others you are NOT looking inward. The very act of relying on these people is a self-admission that you NEED them to help you…this admission is the denial of your own inner knowledge. You are Passing the Buck because it’s “easier”….it’s not, it just seems to be.

2) Books will never answer you…they will give you lots of things to think about (some of them are very good) but in the end they will only lead you to one simple conclusion….”You Know All of It”….so why are you continuing to read? You can hear the same message in a million ways….and you probably have. When are you going to listen and put down the bloody book?

3) “If you meet the Buddha in the Road…Kill it”. As long as you hold onto Anything, you are not letting Go. If you’re not letting Go, you’re not being yourself…you’re trying to convince yourself that you ARE something instead of simply Being. If you meet any concept, any idea, or any belief…kill it. Let it go. Only when you abandon everything you THINK you are (or WANT to think you are) will you find what you actually are.

4) You either Serve God or you Serve Money….you cannot serve both. Every day I run across new books or websites claiming to have “ALL THE SPIRITUAL ANSWERS TO BRING YOU WEALTH AND MONEY”. Guess what? Letting go means LETTING GO….it does not mean acquiring more…it does not mean “Collecting a NEW means of control” (which is all money is). If you want to hold onto your greed, your need for the illusion of Safety, and your need to have more “stuff”…that’s fine, but don’t mask it behind a pleasant mask of “spirituality”.
Do NOT justify your own lack of faith…admit you have no faith and go make your millions. To use the excuse “This book/person said that THIS was the answer” is just a lack of responsibility.

Let Go….of everything. Let go of your need to follow others examples, let go of your need to protect yourself from the world, let go of your need to be loved by others, let go of your need to have a “structure of beliefs”, let go of your need to be “intellectual” or “more spiritual”….and most of all, let go of your need to believe that the answers lie anywhere but Inside You.

The time has come to stop talking about this “Paradigm Shift” (or “New Consciousness” or “Conscious Evolution”…the Label doesn’t matter)…Start living it. We’re all sitting here on the fence saying “We’re ALL One!” but none of us are believing it…if we’re all “One” then BE ONE! You are ONE! Be Yourself…stop trying to be like those you perceive to be separate from yourself.

Looking outward is the same as perceiving(believing) that there IS something outward…there isn’t…it’s all internal. It’s ALL You.

Just Be, nobody can tell you how to do it…

Not even me,
A Forgetful God

The source of our Need

Throughout the last 2 months of blogging I have often referred to myself as “God”…I do this a few reasons, mostly because it’s the closest “label” I can find without limiting myself. I would like to make something perfectly clear though…”God” is just a label. It’s an idea, a concept, and a word…it does not and will never truly describe the “nothing/everything” that I truly am. So why do I use the word? Well, I like the shock value (mostly the shock to my own beliefs and limitations) and if I didn’t use words there wouldn’t be anything here for you to read. Now that I’ve explained that, let’s talk about what we’re all trying to accomplish here…what are we trying to figure out or let go of?

In my last post I discussed Christmas and how we’ve completely bastardized the original idea behind it by using this “holiday” as an excuse to justify our desires and wants. One Guy left an interesting comment to that post and so I’ve decided to use this one as a response. He expressed a curiousity into a “deeper need” behind all of our needs and desires…why do we need/want all these things? Well, here’s my attempt at an answer.

Often I find myself being “gentle” to those around me…I don’t mean compassionate (often being gentle and being compassionate are two very different things). What I mean is that I tend to “coddle” those around me…I keep things to myself for the sake of not upsetting them. When someone complains about their ailments or problems I’ll often just listen instead of saying “You’re choosing to perceive things this way…stop it or stop complaining about it”. Whether or not I should be “to the point” is a topic for another discussion…for the purpose of this discussion though I am going to be straightforward. If you don’t like my answer, that’s okay…but that doesn’t mean it’s not the truth. (it just means you don’t like the possibility that it might be true)

So here’s the question….why do we need or want anything?

Obviously the entire basis for the belief that we need something is the belief that we don’t already have everything we need…this makes sense, right? right. Now, you are the same “nothing/everything” that I am…you are “God” and therefore the creator of your reality and experience. Most people will automatically dismiss me here…they’ll ignore me, argue with me (which never works out well), or simply stop talking to me. Why do they (I) do this…because what I’m talking about is ultimate responsibility. Think about it…I am responsible for EVERYTHING that happens in my life…good or bad, painful or pleasing. Have you ever noticed that people are more than happy to take credit for the good things in their life but they’ll pass the bad things off to “God”? Admitting that you ARE God kinda takes that option away doesn’t it?

So why do we need/want anything? Distraction. We need a lot of things….we need to believe we’re seperate from others, we need to think of the future and the past, we need to have “things” to survive, we need to judge, we need to have power, we need to have control, we need to believe we’re good or bad…hell, we even NEED to label ourselves. Why all these needs? Because it’s distracts us from ourselves…all of these things are meant to bring our focus outside of ourselves.

I have often said that the best thing anyone could do is sit in a dark room alone for as long as possible…why? Because there is nowhere to escape to. You are stuck with yourself at this point and therefore you HAVE to face the things you desperately want to avoid. The fact is that we don’t NEED any of these things…we just choose to believe we do. In believing we “need” something we are, once again, choosing to believe we don’t have everything already. And what do we have? We have ourself (and as “God” that IS everything). Do you see the logic here? Everything we’re doing…all the beliefs and ideas, concepts and escapes, time or labels…all of it is meant to be an escape. If we’re not “thinking” or escaping we’re left Here and Now with Myself…we’re left with ultimate responsibility for how we perceive ourself (reality). This is the core reason we choose to believe we need things…

As long as we “need” something we can pass off responsibility and choice.

Put simply, the thought process goes something like this…

If I “need” this thing to be complete then anything I choose or do will be flawed because I am incomplete…it isn’t my fault, it’s “Gods” fault for not giving me this thing I THAT CHOOSE TO BELIEVE I NEED.

Needing nothing and taking responsibility are the same thing…after all, it is only when you take responsibility for your own Choice that you can Choose to stop needing.
The twisted part about this is that “Choice” can only happen in the Here and Now…I have to stop “needing” to make the choice and I have to choose to stop needing all at the same time.

This is not a battle, this is not an attempt to control…this is what is already happening at the deepest core of myself…I am already “God”, I just have to let go and be myself…the choice and responsibility takes care of itself. It sounds so hard, doesn’t it…it’s not. In fact, your reality has been telling you the secret throughout your life. Through every hard time, every frustration, and every hardship you keep hearing the same message over and over…Relax. Just let go.

A Forgetful God

Why do we Want?

It’s been a while since I’ve made any posts so I thought now would be a good time. To be honest, I’ve been completely absorbed in the whole Christmas thing…not “the gifts” but rather the people and how we all seem to react to this so-called “Time of Giving”. Now that it’s all over, I figured I’d write a bit about what I’ve noticed.

It seems to me that Christmas is no longer what it was originally intended to be. The very purpose of “Christmas” was to honor Christ…of course Santa came into the picture at some point but even the idea of Santa was meant to honor what Christ stood for…unconditional love and giving to all. So what happened? Suddenly everyone is frantically pushing and shoving their way through the stores, stressing out over gifts and money, and even arguing more than usual with the people they love. Somehow this behavior doesn’t seem to fit in with the whole “Christmas Spirit” idea.

The funny part about all this stress is that very little thought goes into the actual “gifts” anymore…more thought is spent on the value of the gifts and how they might “impress” the recipient. Truly, people seem to focus more on their own need to be recognized and “thanked” than the spirit of giving for the simple joy of giving. My favorite example is when the person actually TELLS YOU what the gift cost them…did you want to know? Does it matter? If anything, it takes away from our appreciation of the actual object and limits it to a monetary value.

I think the main problem is that we all go into this time of “giving” with specific ideas of what we want…I don’t just mean “presents”, I mean feelings and emotions as well. When it comes right down to it, the only reason we truly want anything is because we believe it will make us happier…but it doesn’t work that way. Simply by wanting something we are convincing ourselves that we don’t have enough right now…we want money, toys, appreciation, recognition, etc…all for the simple purpose of fulfilling our need to be happy. And what happens when you get these things you thought would make you happy? Nothing…your still left with this feeling that something is missing.

It seems that the very practice of “wanting” does nothing more than convince us we are incomplete without that thing. This belief is the root of our unhappiness, not the lack of that “thing”. So what happens when we stop wanting? How do we stop wanting? Stop believing you need anything to make you happy…start believing you have everything you need right now. (What do I have? Myself)

Would this simple belief change anything about Christmas? I think so. We would find appreciation again, we would have no reason to stress or argue because we’re not trying to “get” anything…in the end, we would find happiness even with a lump of coal (at least you have a way to keep warm if you need it). Giving for the sake of giving can only happen when we don’t desire a thank you…when we don’t desire a boost to our self-esteem. In the end, you have to stop wanting to want things…you have to believe you have everything already.

“When you want nothing…you will have everything”
It seems like a twisted little joke, but only when we stop “wanting things” to make us happy do we actually find happiness. When we stop focusing on what we don’t have, we realize what we DO have and we find appreciation (and thus, joy).

Happy Holidays,

A Forgetful God

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