Forgetfulgods Journal

I often say that “choice” is actually a relatively easy thing to do but that, in an infinite amount of moments, it has to be done often (constantly). I say this because our choice very much changes our direction while we travel through different perceptions of ourselves…just like switches on a railroad. Each choice takes us into a perception where our “self” seems further away or closer. Of course it never really is farther away or even closer, but it seems that way…and when it comes down to it, perception is everything.
Acceptance and Resistance…ultimately the only two choices. But what are we accepting? Reality is the ultimate puzzle and often the answer to our questions are right in front of our face. If we are always trying to accept “something” about ourselves and that always brings us back to more questions then wouldn’t it make sense to accept “nothing”? Seems impossible. How does one accept “nothing” without resisting? It all leads back to that middle ground between duality…neither accept nor resist, simply Be. In accepting that I am “nothing” I am not demeaning myself (though this acceptance definitely requires humility)…I am simply stating that I am not a particular “thing”. I am not a body, a student, a teacher, a good or bad person, or even “God”…I am potentially anything…and everything starts from nothing.
The death of the ego self is the death of our concept of the self. When we stop thinking about what we “might be” then we are just being.
Moment by moment I am choosing to accept my own nothingness…this is progress.
(and I haven’t even moved)

I am.